Seasons of Life: Challenging Boundaries

Gloomy weather it is, clouds have never been this dark, but none would be gloomier than the subtle feelings embracing me right now. As I gaze through my window pane, a tree caught my attention. At first, I was just merely staring at it. I wonder what will happen next when I am all feeling gloomy and bored. When leaves fell off from the tree dancing with the wind, it was not my first time to see such, but I was left astonished. It was a slow and smooth waltz in the air, and honestly, I felt at ease as it was a pleasing sight to see. 

Somehow that tree reminds me of my old self. It is a tree wherein it stood still as it was tested and mocked by the four seasons of life. The autumn, where leaves are starting to detach from trees, reminds me how my downfall made me resort to isolating myself from others. It reminds me of so many vivid memories of how I held myself as I mourn over a downfall I was uncertain if I could stand up again. The sprinkles of snow and the cold breeze of winter pictures how my strength was tested. There was a point where I became numb over cold shoulders that people gave me when I wanted their warm embrace when I couldn’t hold myself any longer. Here comes the scorching heat in the summer, which reminds me how enthusiastic I used to be on how I perceive things that were knocking me down. It was energizing, it was warm, and I actually wanted it to last long as it symbolizes the hope I am looking for. The spring…new chapter, another beginning. This season reminds me of a lesson that my nana used to tell me—an end is just another beginning. Indeed, she was right. As when spring comes, the flowers in our garden blooms again, so do with the hope that I have fighting against the shadow that’s trying to bury me alive.

As the autumn, leaves would fall, and no one could appreciate a tree’s existence without any leaves or flowers growing from it. This is how I see myself; no one could ever see my existence but notices how useless I am. I remembered myself sitting in the corner of my room, losing all hopes and aspirations to strive harder and grow better. I also lost my confidence and self-esteem; I am useless as the tree in autumn. My plans haven’t been achieved, and my dreams are still unconquered, still striving, hoping for a better spring, and thinking what future lies ahead with me.

Online class exhausts us with different levels of stress that made us fall and burst into pieces. This class mode drains us from being a student, while we just wanted to be filled with knowledge and wisdom. We don’t want to be left behind; we want to achieve our goals and payback from our parents’ sacrifices. It was like the leaves in autumn; we fall and become undesirable. Then, I realized that falling apart and being alone is okay, but we only need to put things back the way it used to be. It is a reminder to everyone that everything will be fine; there’s always a time for healing. 

As the winter arrived, the tree-covered with ice just as I am─ coated with unfinished tasks and loaded with quizzes. On winter days, it tested how strong I am to stand with courage and braveness. It tested me how far I’ll go with the strong winds. All I can say is, “I feel numb; I do not have anybody to lean on.” As I am invaded by the coldness of the winter, it’s like autumn that falls apart.

I need to finish my given task on those cozy nights while having a soothing coffee beside my table. It is 11:59 in the evening; while others are fallen deep to their slumber, I am still awake, cramming and rushing things before the submission. I am already cursing words that would at least ease the annoyances brought by rushing. Do you also feel stressed with all the academic loads and quizzes, plus an unpleasant professor? With this kind of situation, many of us are still coping up, still learning how to manage our time to do those activities given by our professors.

Here comes summer, the tree soon is growing and it needs to rest for a while. This season, the trees are starting to grow their leaves. This reminds me that life can be crucial no matter what. You’ll rise. Those two seasons of my life serve as my strength to strive more. They serve as my inspirations to achieve my goals in life.

Feel free to unwind from a load of works. It is time to rest for a while and regain some energy from exhaustion, and a time to refresh and care for ourselves. May this season give us the warmth of enjoyment and stress-free life. Get this as an opportunity to relax and unchain ourselves in front of our gadgets. Let this opportunity be our time to talk with the people who will give us happiness lost by winter and autumn. Talk to our loved ones if possible. This season should be our time finding our inner self. Be productive; stay mentally healthy and physically fit.

Lastly, my favorite season─ spring! So as the flowers bloom, the trees will shine. As I stare at the blooming tree, I was amazed by its beauty and its mesmerizing color. The tree that everybody sees as a useless tree blooms with color and sparkle like a diamond. It made me think of my future; when will my time grow as the tree, and when will I achieve the spring of my life? Those are the questions that rumble into my mind.

Spring is the blooming season and the best season among the four. We will soon rise and reap our success. The spotlight is fast approaching, and this reminds me of my dream. Soon I’ll be the one speaking over the radio, giving information on what’s happening, and I know you can too. Get that title of yours, whether it be before or after your name. I know you can do it; we can do it. Our springtime is yet to come! A diploma is fast approaching, so as we are at the finish line. Keep pushing through for our dreams and goals.

Those seasons made us stronger in time and made us fall but instead of giving up, let’s wait until it is our time. Like autumn, we have downfalls. Just like the winter, things will get cold. In summer, it is our time to heal, and for the spring, this would be our time to chase our dreams and enter the portal of new possibilities regardless of what we are facing right now. Strive harder, young folks! There is always a lot more waiting for us outside the four corners of our room and classrooms.