To myself who always feel unloved & unwanted

I never tried writing a letter to anyone. Perhaps, it is because I don’t
know how to put my sentiments into words; and it is hard for me to
express myself. I don’t know what holds me back, probably it was
fear. Fear of having my words become salt into someone’s wound,
or it may tear someone apart somehow. Self, I am writing you a
letter, as lately you’ve been feeling lonely, unloved, and unwanted.

I am not here to console you, but I am here to apologize for not being
the best version of me when you really wanted to have a progress.
I wanted to apologize for giving up easily when you wanted to fight
‘til the end. You always suffer whenever I try to harm myself. You
always wanted to break free, but all I do is to cage you with my
sadness. You wanted to be heard, but I made you mute—voiceless.

I actually wanted to help you get better, but I wasn’t certain how to.
Instead of helping, I resort to hurting you more. Instead of moving on,
I ne’er let go the pain and the past. I want you to be free; I want you to
be happy. I am sorry…if I hurt you more than I should love you. Self, I’ll try
to make you feel loved and wanted. I’ll never let you down anymore.

You, who’s trying to pick up the broken pieces that connects us.